sometimes when i start to think, think of the many thns tat has happened, the changes, the people ard me...& i start to wonder...when will gd thns begin & when will it end..i have always believed tat gd thns always have an ending. Its either a gd one or a bad one. Since young, i always try not to have to many dreams or hopes to be fulfilled as i noe tat none will be accomplished one day. A person's life is fated, whoeva u will meet, whoeva will bring hurt or harm to u. I can still rmb when i used to laugh even when after i got teased or bullied by my frens in sch. My dad thought maybe im a happy go lucky person..i thought i was too...I have always longed for a true fren, or some say a best fren tat will always be there for u. But it seems like im always the one ended up getting pushed ard or living in the shadows of others...i hate to admit..those were in primary schs. when i entered my secondary sch life. Thns changed for me. New environment, new frens, my character changed too. I became rebelious..my parents say its becoz of my sch..but even i dunoe what causes it, maybe becoz i din wanna get back into the past i had b4?? i dunoe. but soon after i realised it was wrong. i began feeling its hard to communicate to others as no one actually truely understands what i nid, & i refuse to say. Im someone who likes to kip the real probs i have inside me. dun really like to say it out. i start to lock myself in my own world. maybe this could oso be why i often get more fantasy and special dreams than others while im aslp..this also spells why i luv slp so much. this is when one gets his fantasy wild, be ur own director, pick ur own casts, set ur own storyline. i luv waking up frm a wonderful dream, if possible, see the sun rises up jux b4 my eyes rit at my window infront of me. it spells like a brand new day & everyone deserves a second chance. & so i look ard me now, & really wonder who are my true frens....